Random late night thoughts

I don't really have anything to share, ponder, or talk about but I'm in a blogging mood and when the mood strikes, I better act upon it!

On Thursday morning (at 7am baby) we get to spend some time peeking it at this newest little babe. Read also: WE (hopefully) GET TO FIND OUT WHAT WE'RE HAVING! As cliche as it sounds, I really just want to see a healthy happy baby. Im feeling a bit convicted about how often our perspective about this appt is just the GENDER reveal when really, it's such a miracle to reveal all those intricate tiny human organs working in perfect unison and growing and developing. That's what I want my focus to be on, and the gender will just be icing on the cake. :) I can't believe we're already about halfway there. To be honest, it's freaking me out a bit. My kids are at super busy, into everything (colson) and super trying and emotional (Emma) phases and I so don't feel emotionally ready to add another newborn to the mix. When we found out we were expecting, I didn't feel ready but I thought meh, I have 9 months to get to that point. And now I'm all....crap, we're halfway there and I still don't feel any closer to being ready! Ha good thing I know deep down that this little life was meant to be a part of our family and since God purposed it, He will be faithful to give me the strength, wisdom, energy and grace to get through...with victory! Remind me of that in a few months mkay?

Raising girls is not for the faint of heart! Emma has been into princess princess princess everything for several months. Recently however, she's been wanting to change outfits several times a day. it didn't hit me how serious it was getting until she had changed twice and when she asked a third time I let her pick between two dresses. I told her this was it...we weren't changing again today (aka mommy doesn't need any more extra laundry thank you very much!) as soon as she got the dress she picked on she had a full blown meltdown that "this dress is handsome! It's not beautiful! I don't look beautiful!" I'm talking tears, heaving, on the floor meltdown. My heart sank and I thought...already Lord? At three she is already associating her beauty based on what she's wearing?!?! The Holy Spirit was quick in guiding me and I immediately knew that I couldn't allow her to change because that would reinforce that her original dress wasn't good enough and that something else might be better. We've talked a lot about what makes people beautiful (having a heart like Jesus, being kind and thoughtful and serving, etc) and she will tell people that her heart is beautiful but she still judges the clothes I pick out for her and will tell me very matter of factly that things are "handsome" and not beautiful. Lord help me when she's a teeny bopper.

So depending on what this little cricket is, one of our kids will be moving out of their room and we'll keep it as a boy or girl nursery. Then our big extra room will be the " girls room or the boys room" I really want to paint the room a light gray. Like baby elephant gray. Im imagining either soft pink curtains and details or blue and green details. Jarred however isn't on the gray bandwagon. He can't imagine why I'd paint a room the "color of a rain cloud."

We just got Emmy Lou all signed up for swim lessons today. Since we have a boat and spend a good portion of our summer out on the river AND we're spending a week on vacation on a lake, we thought it would be wise to get her some lessons. She LOVES water and is getting really bold when we're out on the river so it seems like it's time. This marks our first organized activity. First swim lessons, next we'll be filling out nits with ballet and soccer and piano. My babies are growing up!

Ok it's bedtime. See ya Thursday (maybe) to hear the exciting news. :)